A day of learning

I have spent the majority of my day working on my Achilles' heel when it comes to my script. The part that has gotten critic is my characters. What motivates them, the personalities, strengths and weaknesses, intentions and so on. It's no wonder I have problems with it, considering my Asperger. But I'm stubborn as hell and not the type of person that settles with a situation that I'm not happy with, but can do something about. Therefore, I have been looking for documentaries on YouTube about human behaviour and how to set an emotion in a scene. How to, for example, write a good death-scene, how to make your viewers/readers cry, a good antagonist, etc.

I love reading about other cultures to learn as much as I can about human behaviour. Today I'm exploring other parts of it. Among it is a documentary about a serial-killer named Jeffrey Dahmer. But I didn't focus on what I heard, but more how his mind worked: how he was thinking, in what way his style of murder reflected in what he felt and how he thought. Right now I'm watching a very interesting documentary that is 1½ hour long. Experts are breaking down our body-languages to something logical and explain their way of functioning. Body-language is one of the most difficult things about having Asperger, that the understanding of it don't come automatically. I love learning things, study something I don't know that well into the smallest detail until I can see a pattern and do a mental, logical map over that subject. Like, how the story repeats itself when it comes to power and how we handle it.

There's a quote in Harry Potter that I love: If you want to know what a man’s like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals.

So many people in this world abuse their power to dominate others. Why? Many times it is because they can. There's another quote that fits with that, this time from Spider-Man: With great power comes great responsibility.

That is one of the things that disgusts me about racism, animal torture and all kinds of bullying and abuse of a position in society: to use it for bad instead of good. The best people in this world are the ones to have the power to do something bad, but chooses not to: like having a persons life in your hands, but spare him/her.

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