If you don't make mistakes you aren't really trying

Mistakes are the best thing we can experience. It's what makes us who we are. Making mistakes is to find out what road you want to take in life. Mistakes in other people's eyes could be the exact same thing that leads you to the path you want to be.

No, it wasn't a mistakes to try the project that seems to fail. In another person's POV it might seem like a waste of time, since the goal won't be fulfilled. But who is it that decide what success is? I've grown as a person and learned alot about both others and myself. But maybe it's the series that will be my thing? Maybe the story about the descendents of Light and Dark is what will make me progress in life?

I'm always told that I shouldn't expect so much, but take things for what they will be. Yeah, you might think so. But I can't afford to think like that. I have to hope, I have to have the desire to succeed. I have to expect the worst, because then I'll either be pleasantly surprised or have been correct all along. If I had an income, if I had possibilites, I could think like that. Take the day as it comes, carpe diem and yadda yadda. But I can't in my currect situation. I have to have the thoughts on tomorrow to be able to go forward. I'm living on social welfare and don't have enough money. My parents are still paying alot for me: medication, clothes, my cats... I will be 27 years old this March and I have a life similar to those who just moved away from home. For other people, education, a job and your own family, isn't that big of a deal. For me, it's what it means to be successful: to actually be able to accomplish something.

I won't be able to feel successful until I know that my life will lead somewhere.

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